work like hell

for a whole week
and the craziest thing is
i took 10mins out from my precious lunch time
to tidy up my desk (the thing i hate the most)
and turn out i felt great when i tried to keep everything in a good order

this week was really hell
boss was away, job was like flooding
i dun really like the way i was
the way that i could have done anything to get the thing happen
and to push everyone to achieve what i needed to achieve
so tense
so tense
that i can't manage to be nice with ppl around me all the time
like the waiter in the restaurant
like my love ones
trying to manage a balance...
to be tough to be firm
while in the meanwhile
to be gentle